forgiveness is not for them. it is for you.
I’m Locked Up.
it gives you your life and power back.
you don’t even have to let the other person know. sometimes the other person isn’t accessible. sometimes that person isnt alive. or far removed from you and your life. that’s good.
you hold the power. we sometimes don’t forgive until they get it right. until they ask for it. until they get on their knees. that’s still giving them the power for YOU to move on and live.
oh we gonna talk today.
forgiveness breaks the hold between me and my past so i can have a better future. it unties your heart from yesterday so you can be liberated tomorrow.
forgiveness is the most significant act a human can ever perform. i don’t ever want to hear anyone claiming someone who does forgive is weak. ever.
to not forgive is being in prison. behind bars. sometimes you cant even smell the air of a new day. you have some room to wiggle around but you’re restricted. every step you take reminds you of hell. every time someone comes to see you, you’re pissed. they came on their free will. they leave loosely and go on with their day. you’re still chained. you can’t even hug them when they come see you. you want to be free, but you can’t.
forgiveness does that. it frees you. it releases you. you get to walk around freely. you don’t have to look back. you still have scars, you still have the experience of prison (hurt/cheating/lied to/harm) but your sentence is over.
when you’re innocent, you want justice.
when you’re guilty, you want mercy….
say it again. when you didn’t do anything, you want justice. it’s owed to you. you demand it. if it’s not granted, you’re pissed. WHY?!
if you’re guilty, you ask for mercy. you plead for mercy.
we have done some bad things. and we want the victim or LIFE to have mercy on us. we know it’s coming but we brace ourselves for it.
but listen. we cannot want mercy and be merciless. doesn’t work that way.
we must exhibit mercy.
Focus on your Future.
you can’t be petty all your life and think you’re gonna reach new heights. you cannot stay down there fighting the past and think you’re gonna elevate to a brighter future.
the past passed.
the devil is employed and is working hard. overtime to pollute you.
he’s doing all he can to remind you of the man you lost so you can’t love and appreciate the man you got.
he’s doing all he can to bring back how she hurt you and made you look bad in front of the family and friends so you can mess around and never fully invest into the next woman who is grown and ready to show you what a real woman is.
he’s doing all he can to reopen up wounds that occurred years ago and your skin and heart has already been adjusted. but if you see the cut or scar, you touch it again to see if it still hurts. you touch the scar and start reminiscing about what happened and go down a rabbit hole with bad memories of the accident.
the devil is making sure you have no future.
whoever is reading this (i’m reading this myself. i have not and not close to mastering forgiveness) think about the things you don’t have today because you haven’t forgiven. think of the great people who walked in and was forced to walk out of your life because you couldn’t forgive the ones in your past. think of the peace you don’t have because you chose to not forgive them.
think about it for a second………
forgiveness is a choice. we normally make choices based on how easy or difficult this choice is.
forgiveness is a hard act to do. but when the hard decision is life or death, you best believe you gonna do it.
death can be physical. but it can also be emotional or spiritual death. when death is on the table, we do those hard decisions.
you never thought about becoming a vegetarian. you get a life threatening illness and doc says you gotta become vegetarian to live. what you gonna do? i know the answer.
you never thought about forgiving. but therapist says if you don’t, you will emotionally die. your future kids will feel your zombie soul. your future spouse will get the short end of the stick and bounce. your relationship with your sister or uncle or moms will never be repaired.
that’s death. you swallow that pride and make those choices when death is on the line.
*read part one here https://definejulius.com/2018/11/14/charge-it-to-the-game/
that’s too much power for someone to have. for someone who doesn’t even love or care about you.
forgiveness is not a weakness.
it is a power. forgiveness is a super power. literally.
trust the process yall.
not forgiving doesn’t make you a bad person. ahhhh. i should have lead with that huh?
not forgiving someone does not make YOU a bad person. it makes you a conscious person. a victim isn’t a horrible person for doing what they really think is necessary to not be in the same predicament again.
but forgiving makes a victim a survivor.
forgiving makes you a survivor.
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